He left us

Its just been 10 minutes i had been informed that one of my old friend, a close one…..had expired. I couldn’t exactly understand what to do. The accident happened 2 days back. He received a call, stopped the bike at a U-turn and a lorry behind him….passed through him or by then, i guess through his body. Its is quite weird as in this trip i had mentioned about him, planned on meeting him with other friends though. Now, it somehow feels as an irony as he has written in his social networking profile,

“life is too short, so why to spend time in judging people….just keep loving dem…accept them as they r”

I mean, screw means, its just too upsetting to know that someone is no more for you to talk to. He had been an active lad of our group…..Leave it. Just pray for him, i’m out of words…

Complicated Feelin!

Love is quite a complicated element, bringing out an unending speculation about its existence. The reference of the ‘triangle love theorm’, the three co-ordinates of love being the intimacy, passion and commitment, suggest the process being quite logical with its existence. But the problem is ‘what about the reasoning behind these feelings. People often tend to search for mates to share their intimacy. This being strange behaviour because often in love, especially teenage fantacies, people tend to like a girl by some random reason, mostly being passion, which inturn tends to be sexual one, and try to imagine that person as a virtual soulmate and try to express their intimate life, show an untold commitment and obviously passion as a steering. Girls too, love a person commit to him but as the time lapses, the fresh interest in the relation vanishes. This is due to an unknown, to the victim, fear of imagining a teenage guy for the rest of the life, though this feelin is forcibly boycotted by many couples in defence. In this phase girls tend to get a lot irratated and tries to expect more attention. This phase is the most hilarious because, the person who feels initially that their mate is different as they see them in a caring and different way, but at this phase tend to accept that their mate doesn’t exactly know their value. This in plain AmE could be termed attitude. In this phase girls turn to guys who, either they had a crush earlier or one whom they are acquianted with and could imagine a picture perfect with. This is hilarious because, many guys in this phase fall into the virtual opinion that the girl finds them better than their previous mate, which again being a misconception, but unfortunately leaves these new guys overloaded with attitude. So a girl’s attitude ruins her relation, creates attitude in an unrelated bait. The case is vice-versa with guys. But mentioning girls is only because; a key that opens many locks is a masterkey while a locked being opened by any key is a spoiled one. This is a general perspective of humans and couldn’t be altered. Changing this mode of thinking is more complicated than manipulating the actions according to it. The point of pity occurs if the guy in the role of bait turns out to be a stud, spoilin the chick’s life

Life seriously sucks

The other day, unintentionally i was speaking about marriages, and to add a bit more horror into the story…I was discussing it with ma mom!! Now the best part came when mom said “Well, the whole world contains your sisters except one right?” It isn’t anythin like I’m a sis maniac, who makes any girl he sees his sis!? No way. So to all those dumb brains, let me clear it, my mom was teasin me. You know what hurts the most, when you know what you did, and the other person knows what you did, but neither of you have the dare to speak this matter open, so I was afraid of the balloon burstin!

I just turned on some random track in ma ipod and guess what! of all the 280 tracks, “Somebody’s Me” started playin.To those of you who didn’t come across enrique’s tracks…trust me, this guy is gonna cry and cry until you start cryin for his misery. I wonder how he’s still committed while writin only about misery and agony. Well, my mind wanted to change the track, as I wanted to have a break from the thoughts of love, etc., but ma heart said….“No, this is the right track….It’s written just or me and for this moment”. Well, its just a side-effect of Enrique’s tracks.

But as soon as the track is done, I started to feel a moment….trust me just a couple of seconds air to breathe, before “Apologize” started playin…..The most desperate, high on emotions song of One Republic…I couldn’t help but singin along with the track…..After all this I could just feel ma head burstin. The matter is I’m not dyin for her love or couldn’t digest our break-up or anythin…..Its just that, I don’t know..Its just like “keepin a piece of cloth on a seat in a pubic busin India claimin it to be occupied….(If you’re in india, you could get what I’m sayin) so the other girl need to wait till the turmoil of this piece of cloth gets solved..As in my case;

she kept her thoughts as a piece of cloth
On ma palace of heart, claimin her presence
She is no longer with me…is for sure, i guess
But these thoughts too, her property, ain’t leavin me
And even I can’t remove them, coz they aren’t ma property……“

Life seriously SuCkS!!!!

I see her!!

I speak to you in every thought
I walk with you in every step
I se you in my every sight
I remember the long rides
Open theaters and the secret hideaways
Kissin and huggin at every laugh and every tear

The evenin walks & the daily talks
The way you smile baby….I swear to fly
I still go to the theater searchin for you
Seein in the street, lovers hand in hand
Kissin and huggin at every laugh and every tear
‘I love you’ they echoed and looked up the sky so clear

I walk to the park bench, we used to hang out
And the snack corner, we loved to break out
I’m at every place where we were
Oh! my dear can  you hear?
I look at the stars, late till night
Till your star goes outta sight..!

You left me all alone
Now I can’t stand…livin on my own
No one to smile at my sick jokes
The snack corner filled with new couples
But I sit alone…..no one can take your place
I order the burger, that you eat
And the small coke, I loved the way you shake

Now even tears don’t flow dear
As there’s  no one to wipe them out
I walk alone…..thinkin you won over me
I wonder what you might be thinkin
When I’m havin this last sip of poison drinkin…..!?

I don’t know…I just wanna start with this!

I don’t get what you’re saying
Never ever bothered tryin
The way you twist your hair
Hum a little rhyme in the air
I just cant take my eyes
But my heart is melting like ice
I don’t know what to do
when the distance is killing me
I need to talk to you
But shadows creeping all over me
Could you see it….
The fire burning, that you lit….
So please come back….yeah
lets talk about it.
Even if we had to fight about it…
I don’t care…. I just wanna be near!!